of wide-eyed innocence and getting there

meet-the-newbies session begins tomorrow for me as an IMSS committee member.
i'm supposed to go up to them, all smiley and bouncey and answer their minute questions on vaccinations and assessment.

owells, i think i was once like that too.
anxious little ball of wide-eyed nerves.
except i like to think myself as not THAT kiasu.
and that surely makes me a more cynical person that before, more hardened by workload an stress and life and the eternal question "when am i ever going to be done?"

but you know what, i think it's for the better now.
me not being so wide-eyed naive, head up in the clouds and all that jazz.
but i don't think i've lost that zeal that drove me into med school and driving me to get done with it.
i think i still have that dream.

it's all that i ever wanted in life.
when i somehow get there and find out that it's not as pretty or rewarding as it looks, that shucks to me then. i'll just stick to it and learn my way to deal with it. it's just something that i've got to do.
it's in my blood somehow.

i think getting there at the end is my kinda happily-ever-after.
nothing else beats that.


unfortunately.