*IT* & *HIM*

i wonder if i would go back to when i was born and reverse everything whether *IT* would make a difference in my life...

but then again *IT* made such an impact on my life that i can never imagine myself without *IT*....

hmm... maybe that's why you can never live a day twice, much less live your whole life ALL over again...

and *IT* did save my life after all...

i should be grateful that i'm alive that is...



anyways, on to happier thoughts....

i finally saw him for the first time yesterday and well, let's just say that i was surprised by how he looked....

for a guy that is him, my expectations of "him" is this really nerdy and starbucks-going guy with a notebook under his arm and his head in the clouds but well, don't judge the book by its cover.

and then i saw him today again and suddenly he looks like a nerd all over again....

what can i say?? i'm just one confused girl... my perceptions of people are as constant as the moon cycle....