of new beginnings and not-quite-endings

Dear Sandra,

It's been slightly more than 6 months and I'm getting better at this. Maybe time does heal all wounds or maybe it's just getting a bit intense right now at clinical school and I'm kept busy. But not to worry, babe, you're never far away from my thoughts. And thanks for teaching me patience and the acceptance of the inevitable.

and tomorrow's the start of something new and scary. I'll feel like an idiot most of the time I expect and then there will be lightbulb moments too. More of the lightbulb moments I pray. and even though I know I'm doing this all for myself, there are still external factors at play here which I do not want to let down. I pray that I'll be just that little bit more brave and mature and not lose any of myself in the process. So, watch over me. After all, you never got that well-deserved milestone and I want you to see it unfold every step of the way.

To new beginnings and not-quite-endings,
xoxo


p.s. I wonder why it still stings just that little bit. it's been quite a while, hasn't it? maybe I just need that hoped-for male ego boost, but it seems that it's a long way coming, babe. I wonder whether I should still play Patience by myself or abandon card-playing for something else.