now or never...

oh well, am in the Leeper library now checking my email and stuff and yes, also waiting for my turn during drama exams... argh, am still darn pissed that my group is the second last to perform in the whole freaking Trinity College!!!darn it.... i hate being last man... it's like you see so many other performances and let me tell you that they are so darn good man!! it's making me feel so inferior and it's not doing much for my stress level!! i'm supposed to cry in the drama and seeing other people cry so effortlessly in their scenes is so not fun lah!!!

but heck, shouldn't be complaining coz my group is really good and they are tons of fun... and not to mention, drama itself is fun... you get to be someone else for a change and for once in your whole life, you get to live the experience of being watched... it's like the spotlight is on you for once in your life and i do mean it literally... and when you get up there, you feel gazes on you and when you hit the right spot with the right lines and right emotions, you feel the collective suck in their breaths, waiting for the next action....i guess it's the desired effect every actor on stage wants.... it's like we live for the moment, like we are living for the 8 minutes and then, it's over and there's nothing you can do about it....

but for me, the moment i'm on stage is like i get an adrenaline high... yes, i do get the jitters and i can see my hand shaking... but heck, you take a risk and put all your feelings out there and you know that you will be fine....

all i can say is that i'm thankful for my drama group coz without tze, nick, sujana and tiok nee, drama wouldn't be THAT fun...
so cheers to you, guys....

it's now or never....